You know
how all my life, I’ve been afraid of falling
stunned by the image
of my shattered body on the ground
so afraid that I refused to jump
if not absolutely inevitable
and when you asked me to jump
you promised I could trust you
promised you would break my fall
would catch me
would make sure I would not get hurt
convinced me that it wasn’t even that deep
and then
when I finally believed you
believed I would certainly survive
finally gathered all my courage
closed my eyes and leaped
you were scared of the weight that came with it
the weight of me
despite me giving you the numbers
and you stepped aside in the last moment
and when I saw the ground coming closer and closer
I realized once more
why I never jumped before
